Friday, April 2, 2010

the guilt.

i still can't forgive myself for what i had done this afternoon. i still can't forget about her.

for those who travels to metro konkovo everyday, i'm pretty sure you've met this old lady before. around 80 y.o. , typical babushka with a head scarf and boots, and a bag full of socks.

life has been hard for her, i reckon. sometimes i would see her selling socks in the cold, not during the peak of winter though, at the staircase where we usually would run up to catch our bus back to our hostel. every time people pass by her, she would say something like '' dear people, please buy some socks from me, help me.''

i don't know about you peeps, but if you've never noticed her before, try look around. she'll be at the staircase, holding a few pair of socks, and with a black trolley bag. if you are not financially tight, maybe you can lend a hand by buying at least a pair of socks from her??
i admit, sometimes i don't even think about the value of money when it comes to buying something i desire most. i know people who spends money like water here too. may be you can eat less and spend on her instead. what about you? think.

i know, there are plenty of old folks selling stuff and begging around, you can't just help everyone of them. but by helping at least one, you've done a great job for the mankind.

i regretted, for not helping, to at least buy a pair of socks everytime i meet her. how i wish i'm rich enough to just buy the whole bag of socks from her.


2 comments:

kecik said...

she isnt there anymore right?? maybe she saved enough money to go to a vacation edi,who knows?

remember the guy who plays some kindda instruments in the under ground tunnel in otiabrskaya? i wanted to give him 10 rubles for a few days edi every morning i pass by....but i jsut couldnt...dunno why..

wenli said...

yea she's not there anymore. i've been looking out for her the past few days. i'll be glad if she has enough money for the day :)

maybe we shldnt blame ourselves too much, since we are always short of money.